5 Months

Well its been 5 months since i had my circumcision done. Before the op was performed i was hoping that everything would be as good as new by the end of the year. Unfortunately, things haven't worked out the way i hoped.

I have no problem whatsoever in day to day activities and have been fine on the surface since the completion of 2 months. However even now i havent healed completely. There are these raw-ish skin parts hanging loose that havent fused to the sides yet. Since it is sore it burns like hell when ever i pour water to try and clean the area. Im not sure if it should take this long for a circumcision to heal. It looks terrifying as well. I have to email my doctor about this as i dont see much healing progress since the last  month.

I dont want to be in a situation where i have to undergo another procedure to correct this. More than physically it would be too mentally exhausting. To anyone considering getting a circ done, here is my 2 cents -- There is nothing wrong in getting the procedure done if it is a medical problem as it was in my case. Its definitely not worth the hassle to do it for purely cosmetic purposes. Also if getting it done then an any cost DO NOT go for a low & loose cut. This is what i have and i wouldnt recommend it to anyone. It takes way longer for the wound to heal and also you have to constantly pull back the remaining outer foreskin to clean the covered parts. In a tight circ the problem of hygiene and cleanliness is a no issue.

Anyway i have to live with what i have but i would advice anyone undergoing this circ to clearly outline to the doc what kind of cut you would like.. i was ignorant and didnt know too much about "styles" and benefits and my doc never even presented me with any options and the pros and cons of each.

Heres hoping to a speedy recovery in the first few months of 2014!

One Month Gone

So its been 30 days since i got circumcised. I have been busy with all my preparation in going back to school and also there hasnt been significant changes to report. In terms of functionality i can do everything now without any discomfort. I can even take a shower with the water falling directly on my glans without feeling any discomfort, unless of course the shower force is too strong. I have stopped wearing cotton gagues as well and even dont apply any betadine on the circed area. I can wear my undies comfortably withot any problems. Erections are also fine and there isnt any poking feeling. The most ugly part post op was the frenulum area which had nicely healed and looking fine right now. There arent any scabs or fluids coming out and it looks pink and healthy.

The negative things that i still experience is that when i masturbate sometimes a tiny bit of blood still comes out. Im trying to be even more gentle so that this stops. But the whole things has made me avoid masturbating as often as i used to. Maybe that is a good thing after all. I do miss being able to freely masturbate when i had my foreskin. There was never any need to be careful or watchful. Now things get a bit more messy and i have to be careful as well. This is a minor trade off and i am more than willing to deal with these changes. I still feel like im not erecting to my complete potential as the stitiches and scar line are still hidden under the outer foreskin. Also now that the glans exposed it gets really thick and makes the shaft look very small. To be very honest i do feel like i appear much smaller and it looks like i have lost an inch in terms of length. I am a bit concerned about this as the size seems to only about 5inches in length and i wish it was a bit more. Despite all the washing the PPP still persists and it looks like they are here to stay. Again I'm very conscious about these factors and would be really embarrassed if i got with a girl and she thought i had some kind of disease. Anyway at least i know im clean and healthy and these cosmetic intricacies are not in my control unless i opt for extremely expensive and painful surgeries. So i have to learn to accept it and live with it and maybe the right girl would give me the chance to explain and maybe even accept me after that. Untill then i have a lot of things on my plate with regards to studies and going back to school.

This will probably be my last post for a while. I will update the blog on a monthly basis perhaps and list out if there are any cosmetic improvements and if all sores are over and done with.

Day 21 -- Three Week Mark

Well its been a while since i updated this blog. I initially started out thinking that there would be something new happening everyday. However beyond the first week the progress is noticeable only after a few days clubbed together. More so i have been busy getting ready to go back to school life.

At the 3 week mark i would say things are starting to at least feel normal now. In terms of appearance though there is still a long way to go.
I am able to do pretty much everything though i haven't tried running or jogging yet. I have resumed my exercise routine but i still want to take it easy and so avoid doing any lower abdomen and leg workout. The glans has become quite ok now and it looks really thick when i get an erection. Most of the stitches have come off and things are healing but there are tiny sores around the area where i got circed and they look a bit red and bloody. I checked with my doc on this and he said its fine and that in time it will heal and go away. So looks like everything is fine as of now.

Day 15 - Caved In

My aim to stave of jerking my self off for 3 weeks went out the window this morning. I woke up with the biggest boner since the last 2 weeks and was feeling horny as hell. Even the glans was swollen and was sensitive in a lesser but more pleasurable way. While on my computer there were some images of beautiful women on a website and i did a google image search to find out who the model was.. And that was it.

One image led to another. Pictures started getting more and more erotic until i finally couldnt handle it anymore. I desperately had to get off. But after handling my dick a certain way all these years i really didnt know how id go about jerking off now. Earlier while uncut id just use the foreskin to stroke from mid shaft to the tip. Now i was a bit perplexed as i did want to get off but also didnt want to touch the frenulum area that is still having a couple of stitches. I pulled out an old tube of KY and applied it to the glans and started rubbing it with just my index finger and thumb. It felt good but even after several minutes i couldnt feel the sensation of an orgasm. All these years its been pretty vigorous stroking so i guess this wasnt working. I was almost about to stop cause it was taking so long and maybe the gentleness wasnt working for me. But that led to more sexual frustration and i decided to even stroke the shaft of my dick with my other hand. Eventually i came and then my senses came back too and i started to regret doing this so soon.

And so this is my advice --  Wait for at least 3-4 weeks before attempting anything. I went to the washroom to wash my self off and i could see a spot of blood on the base of my glans where the stitches were. I was totally freaked out but luckily it didnt hurt. I washed off everything and the drop of blood also washed away. I think the friction against the few remaining stitches caused the blood drop. Anyway i just wshed up and applied the betadine ointment and put on my undies after putting on a cotton gauge. I didnt feel anything else for the rest of the morning. However in the afternoon i found that the cotton gauge was stuck to the opening on my glans. This never happened before, as the cotton gauge only used to get stuck to the frenelum part and not the tip. I figure its due the morning activity that removed some of the keratinised skin on the glans and caused it to stick. I just soaked my dick in warm salt water again for a couple of minutes and it was off.

I dont want to jerk off again, so that there is no further problems caused by it. But its really hard and once i start i find it really hard to stop.

One thing I'd like to point out is that i have read many intactivists saying that orgasms dont feel as good post circ and that sex is not pleasurable anymore. Personally i hate the extremism on both sides of the whole circ issue that one finds online. Most people are either vehemently for it or against it. I feel that this is kind of stupid. I would agree that maybe circumcision should not be done to babies -- but i remember praying and wishing countless times i was circed as a baby when i spent the last decade dealing with my phimosis. The thing is had i had a fully retractable foreskin i wouldnt have wanted to get circed. But since i had phimosis and ballanoposthis i used to woefully wish that i was circumcised as a baby. If i have a son in the future, I would never want for him to go through what I did, growing up always lacking confidence and feeling like a bit of a freak. But i would still avoid circumcision on a baby. I think surgery should always be the last resort and even in my case i tried several things before realizing that surgery was the only sure shot permanent solution for me. Now adult circumcision is another thing altogether. I dont get why so many people are strongly against. Nowadays people dont even bat an eye while getting breast implant or nose jobs or tummy tucks or any one of the hundreds of purely cosmetic surgeries both men and women go through just for the sake of vanity. Sure there maybe underlying psychological issues and it may improve a persons overall quality of life by doing these surgeries which is why i am always surprised to see so many sites where people use extreme words like mutilation and even going as far as to compare it with female circumcision. Anyway i guess i am ranting but my point is have a moderate outlook and understand the reason for people opting to do the things they do before jumping all over and putting them down with rigid thoughts and opinions.

Coming back to the point --- pleasure wise, at least from masturbation, wasnt all that different for me. Some dudes have reported greater pleasure but for me i felt it was pretty much on par with what i used to experience prior to getting circed. The only difference was earlier i could jack off any time, any where in a matter of 3-4 minutes. From todays experience I guess going ahead i would need lots of lube and a fair amount of time. I cannot talk about penetrative sex as I haven't engaged in it even before getting circed (yes technically I'm a virgin :P). I have had only bjs and handys till date. I honestly feel bjs will feel a whole lot better now cause of the direct contact to the exposed glans and handys were good but never did all that much for me as I was too used to my own hand. However, at this point I can only speculate until I actually receive some action. I think it will be months before i have the nerve to whip it out in front of a girl, but I dont see any major problems, in fact i guess the delayed climax will only be appreciated.

Day 13 & 14

Day 13 - Quite uneventful. Spent the entire day at home and didnt give too much thought to my penis except during the shower.

Day 14 - Two weeks makes a big mark in terms of healing progress. I have resumed wearing even my skinny jeans which are a bit crotch hugging. Just need to make adjustments while putting the jeans on so that no rubbing against the zipper. Other than that there was no problem. I even spent the entire afternoon shopping for clothes and tried on several jeans an trousers without any problem. Was out all day long and even stuck in traffic for a while but everything felt fine penis wise. At the end of the day the gauge too came off with barely any spotting on it. I even can get a solid erection without experiencing any pain anymore, but it does still feel like i am not able to erect to my full capacity. I think only once the stitches dissolve completely and the circed area fuses fully to the remaining outer foreskin will this be possible. For now it looks like i have lost half and inch  or so in length but i find that im a bit thicker and even the glans looks much bigger when im having a boner. Before when i was still uncut i dont remember seeing my glans looking this thick through the foreskin. I can only infer that the lack of foreskin caused the glans to really get engorged during an erection, making it look thicker in the process.

Since im not feeling pain anymore during an erection my thoughts wander to sexual things more often. During the first 12 days or so whenever my mind wandered towards sex the boner that resulted would cause a painful choking feeling and i would have to think other things and pinch other parts of my body to divert the pain. That made me consciously avoid thinking about sex as much as possible. Now that i dont feel any pain i can only think about sex and even the sight of lingerie models or gorgeous skimpyly clad women on the tv gets me really hard. I want to avoid masturbating till at least day 21 in order to complete 3 whole weeks of post surgery recovery and avoid any issues. Its becoming incredibly hard to do this (forgive the pun) though. 

Im a bit concerned about the size of my penis. It was never huge to begin with but it seemed fair enough. Now it seems to be quite stumpy and i feel like im not growing to my full potential. I asked the doctor about this and he said that the penis was never touched and only the tight part of the foreskin was removed. He then went on to say that a bottle always looks a bit smaller once its out of the package :P

Day 10 & 11

From here on in i think its going to be slow and gradual progress in terms of healing. I will club the days where there isnt much to report. The salt water soaks have really gone a long way in the healing process. Based on my personal experience, I would recommend anyone who has undergone a circ to start doing it as soon as the doc gives the OK to take regular showers. I can see that things are healing. They still look a bit rough and no where close to what id like it to finally look like but for now it will suffice.

The sensation in my glans is getting more and more stable. Now the top view of the glans feels fine for the most part when brushing against my undies. Its the bottom part or the frenelum area thats still sensitive but i think this is normal and with tight fitting undies its completely manageable.

On Day 11 i went back to the doc for a routine checkup. He said he was happy with the way the wound was healing and that i only need to take care to keep it clean and dry. From his side he felt confident that there shouldnt be any issues and that i could return to all my activities as and when i felt comfortable. That evening i finally went out for dinner and drinks, after 10 days of total inactivity. I even walked a fair amount and did not feel any kind of discomfort at any point. I am still putting a piece of cotton gauge in my undies before wearing them but even the gunky stuff that used to cause sticking is reducing day by day. Sometimes the gauge sticks to my dick because of the blood/fluid sticking to it. During those times i soak my penis in warm salt water and keep pouring warm water on it till the gauge just floats away smoothly and painlessly. There are even some moments when there is no stickiness at all and the gauge comes off dryly without causing any discomfort. 

Day 9 - Salt Water

I have pretty much gotten used to the way things go by in the day now. A little bit of pain and discomfort here and there. Overall its quite manageable now. Only sometimes when the stitches poke the wrong way it hurts like hell. I finally decided to try out soaking my dick in warm salt water as recommended by several other guys who have undergone adult circumcision. It actually was quite soothing. I dont have a tub so i had to use a plastic container and added a spoon of salt and filled it with hot water. I dunked my dick and balls in it and kept it that way for about 5-10min. I did this twice and felt really good each time. I guess the salt helps in healing the wound faster. I am going to be doing this more often in the coming days. I have been sitting at home constantly since i got circed, the only time i stepped out was for my follow up appointment. This week onwards im going to get out and meet some friends and start with all my shopping for going back to school.

In terms of progress i cant really say much. The most jacked up area remain the frenulum part. It still looks like some gross creature from an alien movie. Really hope it heals properly in due time.

Unfortunately it seems my genitals are doomed for bad things. I noticed these white pearly papules. Its a condition called PPP. Its only a cosmetic issue and does not pose any health risk but they are quite unsightly to look at. My biggest concern is that some girl may see me and get scared or freak out thinking i  have some sort of disease. From what i read, PPP afflicts roughly 10 to 25% of all men. Another problem i observed is that my left testicle seems quite lumpy as if it i broken into several little balls. This happens only when my balls are hanging loose. When my scrotum is close to my body i cannot make out anything is wrong. I again went about researching this and suspect i have a problem called Varicocele. Again this isnt life threatening but it seems this leads to immotility of the sperms which in turn causes infertility.

This really bummed me out. I dont want to dwell on it too much but i really would want to have a family of my own someday and this potentially poses as a big problem. Cant help but feel that my junk is messed up in so many ways. Anyway its just something i slept over. Hopefully im wrong and except for all the cosmetic anomalies i have a fully functional reproductive system.

Day 8 - Continued Annoyance

Im starting to wonder if the recovery process is slowing down already. The level of discomfort remains the same due to the hardened stitches. As long as im in my briefs and shorts i am ok but in the shower or whenever im in the buff the movement of may balls causes constant piercing sensations all over my cock. At this point im desperately waiting for the stitches to fall out. I read elsewhere that salt water baths can help sooth the pain. So will try that out soon only problem being i dont have a tub and so will have to dunk my balls in a bowl or cup or something.

Took some pics for personal record and overall from the top view things look nice and normal. But the behind frenelum area is still very scabby and covered in whitish yellow gunk. It looks quite horrendous and the scab is looks like a ugly messed up shirt button like shape on the bottom of my penis. Its still early days but i desperately want to have a normal/good looking penis once all the wounds heal. There is a marked colour difference since my shaft and overall penis is dark in colour while the glans and area just under it are pinkish.

I have tried to get my penis hard just to see how it looks. But even in semi hard state it starts to hurt too much so i cant make it fully erect yet. But im disappointed with how small my penis looks even in semi hard state. Even prior to the circ my cock was not massive in any way but it was a decent 5 inches when erect and quite small when completely flaccid or cold. Now it seems to be swollen a bit and the glans feels heavy and bumps onto the sides of my thighs like the dong of a bell. At semi erect state it looks much smaller and feels like i have lost and inch or two. It has become quite a bit thicker but the length has become quite less. This should all me temporary though and in the coming months everything should revert to normal shape and size.

At night i was sleeping in the buff and could feel a gush of weird pain through my shaft goinng up to the head. At the same time the tip of my glans/ opening had this tinging feeling. In terms of discomfort the last 3 nights have been the worst since the beginning. I think the pain is due to the skin healing and also maybe the stitches are dissolving on their own.

Day 6 & 7 -- Crown Of Thorns

In terms of appearance not much improvement over the last two days. Im clubbing the days as i have pretty much been experiencing the same thing over the last 48 hours.

The major discomfort right now is solely due to the stitches. During my last appointment i had asked the doc about the stitches but he said not to worry about it and that they would fall on their own. The last time i had stitches was on my head sometime last year and back then the regular kind was used which were plucked out by the nurse after about ten days. Im not sure how soluble stitches work or whether they always dissolve as i have read on other blogs that they dont always fall out on their own. In my case the stitches are literally sticking out like thorns and i was able to count 4 such thorns on and around the frenulum area. These stitches even feel very thorn like as i have tried touching them with my finger. It literally feels like im wearing a crown of thorns on my dick head and has been causing me a lot of mental and emotional distress than the actual physical pain. Now my ball sac is hanging lose and so when ever it dangles it feels like getting some mild injections-- very discomforting. Most other guys experienced more discomfort during the initial days and apart from the pain during night time erections no one reported much about pain caused by the hardening of these stitches. In my case though, these stitches are causing more pain and discomfort during my 6 & 7 day than i experienced during previous days. I am hoping that the doc will pull them out during my next appointment if they dont fall out by then.

To deal with this piercing feeling i have started wearing tight underwear like trunks and briefs. The elastic in the underwear keeps my dick in place thus preventing the constant poking from the stitches. Since the freulum still looks a little scabby and messed up i put a piece of cotton gauge on it. After this i was feeling totally fine. I wore my shorts and was able to move freely with only minor neglectable discomfort. I went to sleep that night in my underwear itself. At around 2 am i started to feel very uncomfortable and so decided to sleep in the buff. I went to the bathroom to take off my underwear. The gauge had gotten stuck to the scab and gunk on the frenulum and caused me a world of pain when i tried to remove it. I had to pour several mugs of hot water on it so that it cam off on its own. The pain was by far amongst the worst i have felt since i got circed. I desperately need the stitches to dissolve.

ONE WEEK COMPLETED --  The next day completed a whole week since i got circed. I have decided to alternate between underwear and being in the buff. Try to minimize the pain as much as possible by avoiding previous mistakes. Day went OK with the same amount of occasional dull surges of pain, However my in the night my one year old baby nephew of all things decided to give a hard slap to my cock while i was eating my dinner. Luckily i didnt get to badly hurt but i can now see a slight purple hue on the base of my glans. Probably caused from the trauma. Overall my glans has lost quite a bit of sensitivity and now im able to touch it without getting that weird shock like feeling. Its still sensitive if i rub side ways but at least its getting more stable in terms of sensitivity.

Day 5 - Frenulum

I decided to click pictures of my penis for my own record to see how will it improves as the days pass by.
the top and sides of my dick look fine but the behind part where the frenulum is, is quite messed up. I am not too concerned though as it looking like scabbing which may fall of in time. Also in other blogs i noticed that all the other guys too usually had their frenulum area having a ghastly appearance.

Now my shaft skin is bunching up close to my glans base and i can see its going over the swelling area just below the base. Now my doctor didnt give me any option as to the "style/look" of the circumcision. But after reading about it on other blogs looks like he gave me a low and loose cut. Hence the bunching up of shaft skin at the glans base. Every time i take a piss i pour warm water on my penis and try to rinse of the white gunk that appear just below the base. Im afraid to pull back the skin and reveal the swollen ring partly because im not sure if i would cause damage from the pulling and secondly i would be terrified to see something weird. Right now my penis looks totally fine from the top view. Just the glans exposed and immediately below the glans is the bunched up skin from the shaft. The stitches have started to claw on the side and if have to keep pulling my ball sac away to stop that constant poking feeling. It feels a bit like thorns poking unless i adjust by balls out of the way.

I figure i will continue with the warm water washes several times a day until the next week when i have my next appointment with my doctor.

Just a note that prior to circ i used to lift weights thrice a week and used to have protein shakes. I have stopped exercising completely and am starting to get really fat as i am stuck at home all day and now eat out of boredom. But i read on several sites that protein can help with post surgery healing and so im still on the shakes hoping it will help me recover faster. Im still walking slowly and with some discomfort specially from the dangling of my dick and balls.

Im now looking forward to having the stitches fall  out soon so that i can have erections without that thorny feeling and also so i can have a look at how my dick looks when fully erect.

Day 4 - Bandages Off

Finally it was monday.. the day i had been waiting for since saturday. I would be going back to Dr.Vernon for a checkup and dressing change as well. I was really hoping to hear some good news today in terms of healing progress once the bandages were off.

By now my bandages were completely soaked in urine. My balls and thighs were getting slapped by the bandages and hence were getting that irritating wet feeling. Since the bandages were so wet i constantly felt like i needed to urinate. Moreover due to the usual erections that occur while im asleep, the bandages were also moving off from where they initially were and now were even covering a major part of my glans.
I was smelling like a public lavatory that entire day and the stench wouldn't go away no matter how many times id wipe my self with baby wipes or try to dry the bandages off with tissues. It was highly embarassing and i just wanted the day to go by so that i could visit my doc and get the bandages off.

When evening time finally arrived i got ready. As mentioned in previous posts, while at home i only wear a garment called lungi (something like a long, think cotton skirt) and my dick and balls would dangle loosely. Though wearing this garment allowed for more air and ventilation it also caused a bit more discomfort from all the dangling and movement whenever i would walk. However to go to the clinic i first put on my underwear (trunks style). The close fit of the trunks allowed the penis to be held at 12 o'Clock position without much movement. I was able to wear y shorts comfortable over the underwear and was even able to walk easily, although at a much slower pace than i usually walk.

At  the clinic, Dr.Vernon removed my bandages. Though he was just unwinding them, the constant pushing and tugging feeling pained me as my penis was very sensitive. When the bandages were finally off i had a horrible burning sensation on my dick and needed a relax for a couple of minutes before it subsided. The doc said that the wound was healing quite well and told me i needn't worry about anything. The gmals was still sensitive and i couldn't pull up my penis as my frenulum area was very sore. He gave me a gauge square and using that i was able to wear my clothes. The doc said i could take showers now and to let the water flow from my body onto my penis so that it slowly gets used to all these sensations. He told me i no longer needed to take the painkillers and also gave me a betadine ointment to apply all over the glans.  I asked him about the urine flow and he said that probably happened because the bandages were creating some blockage.

Once home i took off all my clothes and finally had the time to inspect my cock. The head was looking quite good and the part where the incision was done was actually covered by the shaft skin and it was bunching up over the incision and swelling. SO it looked like a turte head peering out of its shell. Even my urine flow had become fine again and i was able to pee straight and standing up. The turn of evens brought a big smile ot my face. I was completely relieved that i could pee straight again and also by docs words that i was healing nicely. I hope this continues for the remaining weeks so that most of the healing is done before i leave for school.

DAY 3 - Frustration

Day 3 seemed like a repetition of day 2. Woke up in the morning with the usual stiffness, choking feeling on my dick. I was literally counting the hours down to the next day as i desperately wanted to get rid of the bandages. Fortunately there were a lot of distraction through out the day as many relatives came home and so my mind was not completely focused on my penis.

Still faced the same issue while taking a piss. Unable to direct/aim the flow into the pot and instead its just spraying all over the place. By far this was the biggest annoyance since i got the circ. The pain comes and goes in widely interspersed waves.

Day 2

Day 2 was not a good day for me. Woke up early with a stinging feeling in my penis due to an erection. I had to think of non sexual things to kill the erection and only then the pain went away. Every couple of hours through the day i would suddenly get a surge of moderate pain that would last a few seconds. I think this is again due to the blood and other secretions seeping into the bandages.

My urine flow unfortunately has gotten worse. It was spraying all over for the entire duration and created a bit of a mess in the toilet. The bandages also got a little wet with the urine. The doc asked me to keep it dry till he changed it on monday. But here i was on saturday morning already getting it wet. To make matters worse when i sat on the pot to take a dump i was holding my penis the whole time to avoid contact with the seat etc. Unfortunately i started to pee again and got my bandages wet a lot. I got really frustrated with this as i would have to spend 2 whole days in piss soaked bandages. The last thing i need is to get an infection due to the urine soaked bandages. Really concerned about this spraying effect while peeing. Never had it before my circ. Maybe the foreskin used to help channel the flow into a single stream. This made me drink less water than i normally do as everytime i took a piss i would end up with pee on my thigh and feet and all over the toilet. Just hope this gets rectified soon as having to sit down and pee for the rest of my life would be not just a pain but emasculating as well.

Over all the sensitivity of the glans is still the same. Still the same mild shock like feeling everytime there is contact with the garment. My groin is starting to stink as well due to the blood, fluid and piss soaked bandages. Haven't even had a bath in 2 days and just been using baby wipes to keep my self some what clean. I am quite an impatient person by nature and this healing process is really driving me nuts even though its been only 2 days. When i had a motorcycle accident the previous year i had stitches on my head and bandages around my knees and hands as a lot of skin got scraped off, but after a week i was still able to go about my usual activities. Really hoping that i will be able to resume all my normal activities and lose the hyper sensitivity in my glans after a week as i have to prepare for my departure back to college in the next couple of weeks and cannot afford to waste time.


  

Day 1

I woke up at around 6 am in the morning with the nurse coming in for the routine blood pressure check. I got a good 6 hours of sleep at night and felt well rested but also quite lethargic. Moreover my room didnt have a tv and so i was just starting to get really bored and wanted to head back home asap. I was waiting for Dr. Vernon to come in and check up one me and give me a discharge but he was in an other surgery that morning and i wasnt sure when he would be making his rounds.

I got up to go to the toilet and again was unable to pee straight. The same thing happened wherein it sprayed everywhere initially and then became a straight flow and then at the end of it also it started to spray.
I was also a bit constipated but that was because i hadn't gone the previous day.

After my breakfast and popping some more pills i was just relaxing in my bed. Dr.Vernon then came into my room to have a look at my penis. He said everything seemed ok and i was good to go home. I asked him about the blood and stuff on the bandages and he said that it was normal and that he would have someone come in and replace the dressing before my discharge. He also asked me to come to his private clinic the following Monday to replace the dressing and also check the progress of my healing.

Later in the noon, after my lunch, the discharge sheet was passed to my dad and he went to pay the bill at the cashiers desk. The total expense for everything including room charge, OT charge and doctor fees came to around 14.5K Rs. Now i was only waiting for the dressing to be changed. A female resident doc came into the room along with a nurse. I felt a tad bit awkward about having a female doc do it but was more interested in getting fresh bandages and going home. The dressing change lasted around 5min but it was a world of pain for me. When the doc pulled the bandages of my penis i literally yelped in pain. Then immediately after she applied some kind of liquid which caused a horrible burning sensation on my entire penis. This hurt like hell and i even asked her if it was supposed to burn so much. She said that the burning sensation is expected but i was still grunting from the sensation on my super sensitive penis. I was actually pinching other parts of my body just to confuse the pain signals going to my brain from my penis. It did help a little bit to divert the pain from my penis (which i couldnt handle) to the pinching on my lower abdomen. Once the dressing was changed the pain stopped and the burning subsided. My dad came back in the room ready to go but i needed a good ten minutes to just recover from the last 5min.

Now wearing clothes was another concern for me. I didnt know how i would walk out of the hospital in clothes when i couldnt even bear the hospital gown touching my penis. I read up on the other blogs about this and even my doc advised me the same. I had a pair of fitting trunk style undies and kept my dick at 12 o'clock position. The fit of my undies went over the thickening part of the bandage and so i didnt feel any pain. I wore my shorts and was able to leave the hospital --  walking slowly and in a slightly funny manner.

Once home i got into a clothing called a lungi which is basically like a long skirt kind of cotton item worn by men in southern india. It gave me plenty of room to dangle my dick loose inside without much contact with the cloth. At night while sleeping i had to adjust my dick every time i moved from one side to the other but managed to sleep fine. 

SURGERY DAY - 25th July

At around 6am a nurse came in to take my blood pressure. She asked me to take a shower and change into the gown provided and leave everything like phones,chains, rings and even underwear off. I went in for a shower and looked down to see my old self one last time. No turning back.
I was ready to go by 7.30 itself but it wasnt till 8.30 am that the nurse came in and took me in a wheel chair down to the Operation Theater.

Over there they gave me another shot of antibiotics and then the anesthetist came in and asked me what i wanted. A GA is unnecessary as circumcision is not an intrusive surgery. I opted to be sedated followed by local anesthesia in the surgical area. I dont have a problem with regular injections or needles. But i was quite concerned about the effectiveness of the sedative and local as i had never undergone a surgery prior to this. I would say i have a moderate threshold for pain but when it comes to my dick I'm a bit of a pussy :D.

Dr.Vernon came in and asked me to pass urine once more before start of surgery. I didn't feel like peeing but he asked me to go nonetheless. In the toilet i did pass a bit of urine out. More than what i had expected. i then went to the theater and lay down on the table -- point of no return.

There were several nurses and support doctors assisting Dr.Vernon. I was shivering a because of both nervousness and also the OT was quite cold. The doc asked me if i was cold and i told him yes after which they increased the temperature of the a/c and wrapped a blanket around my upper body.An IV was inserted into my hand for the sedative. They told me i would feel sleepy. But i was considerably alert or at least thought i was. Dr. Vernon was marking the areas and pulling the foreskin a bit which caused me a bit of pain. That was it. After that i simply felt the prick of the needle from the local and from there on in no pain at all.

The doc went to work and in half an hour he was done. The whole time he would check in on me every now an then and i would say all way OK. Once he was done he stitched me up and bandaged me. They rubbed some antiseptic over my legs thighs and balls and i was wheeled out to the recovery room by 9.30am where i remained for an hour and they gave me 500ml of IV fluid.

My dad was brought in to see me and i told him as well all was OK and Dr.Vernon also said evverything went fine. I was really happy cause pain was my biggest fear and the entire surgery was virtually painless apart from the couple of pricks from the needles. After an hour i was wheeled back to my room and asked to stay overnight just to be on the safe side.

I was really pleased with the hole procedure and in the recovery room had a peek at my penis and for the first time saw my penis head. It looked pretty good except for the bit of inflammation. i expected a lot more blood to be seen and so was surprised. Things started to change slowly once the local started to wear off. I started feeling a tingling sensation on my penis as it was exposed for the first time in 25 years. i looked down to see and was a bit worried as i saw a lot of blood and yellow stuff in the bandages. Luckily the blogs i read before the surgery stated that this was expected so i was able to keep my cool.

There was discomfort only when anything made contact with my glans. Even if the gown or sheet touched it i would jump a little. It is not pain but a very very tender and sensitive feeling. The closest i can compare it is to getting a short mild shock every time something touched my glans. With careful adjustment i was able to prevent that contact as well.

At around noon i decides to take a piss and see what happens. I had read the peeing can be very painful after circumcision but this wasn't the case with me. There was no pain or stinging sensation. But my urine was flying all over the place initially , like when u press down on a hose, and after a few seconds it converged into a straight flow. I'm not sure how normal this is and is something i forgot to ask the doctor about. I suspect the spraying is due to the inflammation on my glans tip. The doc had asked me to keep the bandages dry but the last bit of urine would always fall on it. The bandages looked like those dogs with funnels around their necks to keep them from licking. My dick head was sticking out and a short thick bandage surrounded the area where the stitches were.

Every now an then i would feel a shot of pain. Kind of like a mild injection on the tip of my penis. I dont know what causes this pain. I assume its the blood and fluid leaking out. During the night i was given some more antibiotics & a mild pain killer and that was it.

I was able to lie on my back with knees bent and feet on the bed, and even lie in fetal position on both sides comfortably. I lay down o for the most part of the rest of the day and barely sat up or moved about. I slept better that night than the previous night feeling happy that the surgery was over and i could move on from all the anxiety that afflicted me while growing up.

PRE OP ADMISSION - The Night Before

As advised by Dr.Vernon, I got myself admitted in Holy Family Hospital the evening before the surgery. My dad had accompanied me to the hospital and stayed on.
Nothing much happened in the evening. The nurse gave a Tetanus shot and the barber came in to shave me. He shaved off everything right from my belly button down to the middle of my thighs. I was concerned about the shaving aspect earlier as i am pretty hairy and have a pretty scrunched up looking scrotum. So i was really concerned about shaving nicks and cuts. But the whole thing was absolutely painless. They use a special surgical blade and not the regular one we use for our face. The surgical blade just smoothly glides over the skin and shaves the hair without shaving foam or water. I had my dinner and was advised not to drink any water or eat food post 10pm. Again i did as instructed and went to bed by 10pm. I was moderately nervous but also more anxious to get this whole thing over with. I tried to remain calm and for the most part was clam that night but was barely able to sleep more than a few hours that night. Maybe it was the state of my mind but the bed and pillows were also extremely uncomfortable.

CONSULTATION & DIAGNOSIS

As mentioned in my previous post i knew i already had been suffering from phimosis. I have decided to pursue higher studies and have gotten an admit to a college in another country. Before leaving my home country i wanted to make sure that i would be 100% OK and that nothing should come in the way of my studies for the next 2 years. Medical treatment in India is also much easier and affordable than in other countries.

I was referred to Dr. Vernon Sequira by family friends who are also doctors. Dr. Vernon is a general surgeon and well versed with adult circumcision. Durring my first consultation he examined me and tried to pull back my foreskin until it hurt me -- which really wasnt very far. After inspecting my penis he told me that i didnt have full blown phimosis since the tip was able to open slightly. My foreskin was very tight though and he said that there is inflammation on the foreskin and penis glans called Ballanoposthitis.
He recommended that the surgery be done to take care of the Phimosis and the Ballanoposthitis.
I had about a month to go before flying out for my studies and asked him to schedule the surgery asap.

He wrote down a bunch of pre op tests to be done and also a general physician check up to be done. He also gave me a dosage of antibiotics to be taken for 5 days before the sugery
I completed all the required tests and was declared fit for the op. Dr. Vernon scheduled my surgery on the 25th of July at 8.30 am.

WHY CIRCUMCISION

The reason i have started this blog is to give a detailed account of my experience of getting a circumcision done as an adult at the age of 25. I have done so as there are many fears and doubts in the minds of adult males who need to take this step. Fears that i can relate to as i had faced the same while contemplating about the procedure. During my research i came across several other blogs which were very useful in providing an insight into the whole procedure. Both the before and after. Their shared experiences along with images that helped me mentally prepare for what to expect and greatly helped negate the fear and anxiety i felt before going in for my circumcision. Just adding my experience out there just in case it may help someone in anyway whatsoever.

I have known since the age of 15 that i had PHIMOSIS. Still it has taken me a decade to finally go through the operation. I underwent my circumcision on 25 July 2013. I will post about everything from the time i got my diagnosis right up to my current day experiences.

Here is the LINK of the blog i found to be very useful to me and has inspired me to leave an account of my own experiences. I understand that pictures can be very helpful to understand the updates but i do not feel comfortable posting pictures of my self and shall only write about it.